classes starts today..

dear's favourite.. "yee sang"

all the yummy yummy food!!

first day of college was so sucky.. cos we were assigned with some assignments while everyone was still in their CNy mood.. brains were not functioning.. we were procrastinating the whole day.. yes, i said WE.. cos i was not the only one procrastinating.. haha.. hence, the deadline is on this WEDNESDAY!!! *tsk tsk tsk* i hate classes!! but have to push myself to the limit.. till my very last breath!! cos now.. I'm so near and yet so far..

sigh.. there goes the Monday blues.. =) do not blame me.. cos i bet my classmates are all cursing and whining bout this.. and I'm very sure they did! been going till very late at night lately.. yesterday was at Xin Yi's house for the "pai tin gong" ceremony.. had loads of fun catching up with her and all.. she'll be back to Sarawak today.. gonna miss her heaps!

anyway, i had a wonderful dinner today at my dear's house.. and I'm so so full now.. cos his mummy cooked all the nice nice and yummy yummy food today.. =) oh ya, not to forget.. we had "yee sang" today as well.. thanks aunty!! =) i have to go for now.. still have research to be done for that bloody assignment.. =/ *bluek*

new year was a blast!

Me, Alfred, His mummy and daddy!

Jeremy, Chris, Me and Alfred in Ipoh..

Dearie boy and me in Ipoh! =)

18th February 2007 - 21st February 2007

hey peeps! I'm finally home!!! home sweet home!! =) CNY in Ipoh was a blast.. i had loads of fun.. and not to forget loads of food.. but that's what all new year is about rite? i had fun gambling this year.. but i guess my little cousins were having much more fun than i do.. haha.. *laugh sheepishly* kids nowadays.. *tsk tsk tsk* what a bad thing to practise when they're too young to gamble.. oh well.. *shrugs*

and i get to meet up with my lovely girl Jamie! and her so-called boyfriend Chee Onn.. =) it was nice meeting him.. cos he looks so much like my cousin brother, Ryan.. so so much a like.. we when to halo cafe again.. but there where no sunken stars this time.. *sigh* why why why?? haha.. thanks so much Jamie, for fetching me here and there.. and i have loads of fun with you too! *hugs*

and something sweet happened this CNy.. thanks to my dearie Alfred.. he was being such a sweetie to come and look for me when i was in Ipoh.. i was really touched dear.. thank you so much! and not to forget your family as well.. for willingly to drop by in Ipoh just for me.. =) that's really so sweet of you guys.. love you all so much! *hugs and kisses*

hmm.. *thinks* guess that's all in Ipoh.. i came back on the 21st.. was back in the morning and i slept the whole day.. till about 7 something at night i went out with Wye Jun and his friend Justine.. so we went to The Curve and had our dinner in TGIF.. then Wye Jun's friend Melvin came.. (thanks Melvin for spending my meal.. that's really nice of you) after the dinner Alfred came and join us.. then Melvin's sister, Josephine and her boyfriend Eric came along.. and of we went to Sanctuary..

and what a night!! they actually open two bottles there.. and we were drinking and dancing like crazy.. but it was really fun.. cos it has been a long time since i went clubbing.. i mean some sort of clubbing thingy in Sanctuary.. we were there till bout 2am.. and went we were about to leave.. i have to drink another shot of pure for one second! thanks to Smith.. haha.. he asked me to call him that.. damn damn.. and it was not for one second.. damn liar! =p well, i have heaps of fun with a burning throat.. then i went to BL with dear for a drink before we head home.. oh what a night! thank god no hang over.. =) *smile sheepishly*

ipoh.. here i come!

I'll be leaving back to Ipoh in few minutes time.. will be missing my dear heaps here.. =( anyway, was supposed to go clubbing today with Tiffany they all.. but i couldn't make it.. so sorry people.. my bad..

so instead of going clubbing.. i went out yumcha with Alfred and Xin Yi.. went to Station One again.. then we played cards and i was the loser!! haha.. bad sign for not gambling this CNY.. but it will be so hard to resist..

anyway, that's all for today.. I'll be back blogging for more after my trip in Ipoh.. *argghHhh* I'm missing him so much already.. have been seeing him consecutively for so many days! have to get used to it now.. *sigh* love ya so much dear.. take good care of yourself.. till then..

Happy Valentine's Day!

our appetizer.. *yummy*

our tomato soup! =)

his main course..

my main course.. =)

our dessert.. so lovely!! =)

i had a wonderful time today on Valentine's Day.. cos it was my first time celebrating it.. as in dressing up formally for a dinner together with your loved ones.. =) i was really anxious.. thinking of what to wear and all..

but i bet suet sum was even much more nervous than i do.. she has been asking me the night before where will i be going and what will i be wearing.. and she even made plans to spend time with me.. *awwww* that's really so sweet of you girl.. I'm so touched.. i hope you had loads of fun with your college mates.. love ya! =)

alright.. back to my dinner.. Alfred brought me to San Francisco Steakhouse.. where we actually made the reservations there a week earlier.. the environment there was not really grandeur.. but well, nothing else matters when you are with the person u love.. *love is in the air* i am really really content at this point.. =)

after our dinner we went to the Beer Garden.. we ordered a bucket.. and there's two of us drinking only.. knowing that i am not a good drinker.. i was forced to drink literally.. cos i loose in the card game.. so i have to drink.. *sobs* after the drinking session off we head back to our home.. i had such a wonderful time with you dear.. thanks so much for everything!! love ya! *muaks*

things were still the same from the incident last night.. the cold war is still on between me and him.. he didn't reply me messages and all.. i don't know what have i done.. *sacrosanct* and i have to go to college.. knowing that i am not feeling me today.. i force myself but i could only stay for an hour plus.. i am just so vulnerable.. *sigh*

after college mum wanted to go to Carrefour.. so we drop by there a while before head back home.. and i saw him online.. knowing that i have to clear things out with him.. so i message him again.. and finally he replied.. those misunderstandings and the stress that he was facing is killing us both.. we were talking till a point where we have to leave each other alone.. so i went offline..

then Wai Seng came to bring me out for snooker.. so we went to Summit.. was having heaps of fun there.. laughing and laughing all the way till i stomached.. haha.. and he made me phobia with the colour "Green" now.. (you surely know what am i talking about) =) anyway, it was really nice of you entertaining me today.. with all the "jeng jeng jeng" (opps.. i am not supposed to say this out) haha.. and i did not bring my purse out today!! what on earth is happening to me?? so he had to pay for everything.. *scandalous* thanks so much for everything today.. i owe you ya.. the next time snooker is on me alright? =)

by the time we left Summit.. Alfred called.. he wanted to meet up.. and i was surprised.. to a point i actually thought things with me and him is over.. so Wai Seng drop me off at my house.. (i can never thank you enough) =) and Alfred came and pick me up.. but i went home for dinner before we went out.. finally, we get to settle everything down properly.. and i was glad that i could take it talking face to face.. and there was one thing he said that made me felt so touched.. "whenever we are having a hard time or things are not going the right way, we can always ask for a time out and not a break up.."

and now, i am all content again.. thanks dear.. and not to forget Wai Seng.. =)

in a stage of perplexity..

i just came back from another yumcha session.. was out with Xin Yi, Wai Seng and his friends Alex and Bo.. thanks for being so entertaining.. though I'm not feeling top of the world today.. *sigh* anyway, it was really nice meeting you guys.. =)

I'm feeling lost right now.. hence, I've decided to express my confusion on the monitor again.. i mean i find this the best way.. to say whatever i feel.. i know action speaks louder than words.. but somehow, blabbing to the monitor is one of the best way for me to release myself..

i went to college this afternoon.. was having some interview with all the Prom King and Prom Queen nominees.. after that, i went home.. till evening Alfred came and pick me up to the Curve.. went there to look for my Valentine's gift.. but i was being fastidious again.. so end up i didn't get to find anything there..

then things start going the other way round.. somehow, he was discontented.. and he acted cold.. i really didn't know what I've done wrong.. sometimes, i find it hard to understand you.. cos you do have split personalities.. i mean everyone does.. including me.. I'm trying my best to compromise in everything.. what more can we ask for? i feel so tiny.. i feel so confused.. i know you have been through so much with her before.. and there are things where she will do for you and i will not.. the only reason is because i do not feel comfortable doing it.. and i really do hope you understand rather than treating me so coldly.. what are you thinking off? what exactly do you want or expect me to do? i am myself.. i just don't wanna be someone who you expect me to be..

probably it was not a big matter after all.. or it's just me thinking beyond thing?..

shopping sunday!

woke up at 1 in the afternoon today.. thanks dear for waking me up.. if not I'll be sleeping like a dead pig.. *grins* then we plan to go 1utama to shop for his CNY apparels.. so off we went..

we reach there about 3.30.. and the roads to the parking on either new wing nor old wing was packed!! *sigh* so we tried our luck to the new wing.. and surprisingly we found a place to park in less than half an hour! *miraculous* how amazing? =)

so then we had our lunch.. i mean brunch in A & W.. cos we couldn't think of other place to eat.. and A & W was the nearest to the parking area.. *how disinclined* well, i finally bought Alfred his valentine's gift.. was cracking my head thinking of what to get for him.. and was bugging Xin Yi to go out with me tomorrow to look for it.. so i bought him a really nice formal shirt.. and he looked really nice and smart in it.. *proud* =) then we went Starbucks after few hours of walking.. and he was bugging me to find my gift.. although i do like the bag we saw in Rip Curl.. but i have too many of those types of bag already.. sorry for being so fastidious.. i know i am such a fusspot.. *grins sheepishly* then we finally gave up to find my gift from 1Utama.. so we decided to drop by Sunway Pyramid..

another miraculous thing that happens today.. the crowd was not that crazy in Pyramid.. and we found a parking space in less than half an hour as well! *joyful* plus it was the peak hour when we were there.. so we went and look for the gift.. and i didn't know Rip curl was closed down there! *gRrrrR* thought i could find more handbags there than in 1utama.. well, we went around and i still couldn't find things to buy.. and our stomach were making so much noise then.. so off we went to Asia Cafe for dinner..

and tomorrow will be another shopping day again.. and I'm so broke.. i don't wanna shop anymore!! but it is so irresistible.. Xin Yi and Wai Seng suggested to go to the Curve.. and i still haven't shop there.. it is driving me saint! oh well, tomorrow is not confirmed yet.. but hope you guys can make it at night.. so we can shop then to laundry bar! till then.. =)

another night out?

i was tired today.. really really tired..went college this morning to help nigel out with the prom votes thingy.. then after that went lunch with parents..

everywhere was so packed! roads were conjested like crazy.. it's just CNY after all.. what's the big fuss?? *wandering*

then i went to 1 utama to help that change his pants.. (thanks yi dong.. owe you one) after that i went home and straight to bed.. cos was damn tiring.. so off i Zzzzzzz..

then Alfred called and told me he's coming back now.. *delighted* after that we went to Summit and yumcha there a while.. then there goes with our normal routine with that photo hunt thingy.. =) then walk around to look for his spectacles and apparels for CNY.. after that off we went to SS15's Station One to meet up with Xin Yi and Wai Seng..

i had chicken chop there.. and the food was really not bad.. but the place was very much like Halo Cafe.. while waiting for them to arrived we saw Chun Min and Shern.. then ate dinner there then off they went.. by the time Xin Yi and Wai Seng arrived Alfred have to go already.. *heavy-hearted* but that is one of the things that makes me loves him so much.. he is just so diligent.. =)

then we continue yum-chaing till bout 1.30.. then me and Xin Yi went for a second round.. she said she was hungry.. so we went to Nasi Kandar at Taipan.. she ordered roti tisu.. and you know what.. it was enormous!! they need like 3 plates to lay that thing flat down.. and she have to eat it all by herself.. sorry girl.. cos i was really really full..

then we were having our girlie talks.. bout how stupid we were in our past relationships.. those were really the days.. then it was already 2.30.. so we went home.. but before that she brought me over to her new house to have a look.. and it was a pretty one.. =)

i had a great time today.. thanks to all of guys.. I'm really tired now.. time to sleep.. nites!

friday's night out!

it's Friday night again.. fantabulous! today i went out with Tiffany and Nigel to laundry bar.. can't resist staying at home on a Friday night.. although i still have heaps of assignments waiting in line.. and the deadline will be on the 5th of March.. thank god there's still some time for me to complete it.. but so many things to do this month.. Valentine's Day is just around the corner.. and i still haven't get anything for Alfred.. =/ and not to forget CNY! loads of food.. and hopefully loads of red packets too.. =) hope i won't procrastinate anymore.. cos time is not allowing me.. i need to keep track on my schedule.. *sigh* so to keep my mind off this, i went out.. *feeling bad* but oh well.. =) we were there till about 12.. then when over to centre point.. all of us was feeling kinda hungry.. so off we went to McD.. then met up with Gary there.. who ffk us earlier in laundry bar.. but everything was good.. cos it has been a long long time since we all go out and have a drink together.. oh yeah.. tonight no second round with my dear.. cos he'll be staying in KL.. *sobs* missing him here.. and tonight it's a Saturday night!! which means i won't be at home again.. haha.. *big deal* can't wait for tonight.. cos Xin yi's back! yay! will be going out with her and not to forget bout my sweetie.. =) till then..

finally a gathering.. =)

suet sum and cherie..

chun min and cherie..

cherie, suet sum and amanda..

cherie, hui kean, chun min, wei jiin, suet sum, amanda and kenneth..

last night we people finally decided to gather for a meet up.. it has been a last time since we all meet in a group together.. to be exact i think it was about 4 years ago.. those were the days when we use to hangout with each other.. =) so 8 of us came for the gathering.. me, suet sum, amanda, kenneth, eugene, hui kean, wei jiin and chun min.. was surprised to see wei jiin.. cos he was bloated!!! i mean bloated as in really bloated.. haha.. kenneth did put on weight.. much more better than before.. and the rest of us not much changes.. still looks the same.. we were at the naili's in taipan.. a nice place for gathering like this.. the environment and the ambiance was good.. was sad to know that quite a number of us will be leaving abroad to further their studies.. kenneth will be leaving in July.. hui kean is already in Melbourne.. chun min leaving next year.. *sigh* that's part of life.. where people come and go.. so we have to appreciate whatever we have for now.. is good to meet up with u people.. more gathering to come.. love ya peeps!!! oh ya.. before i forget.. today is ALFRED LOK'S 21ST BIRTHDAY!!! haha.. happy birthday bro.. may your wishes all come true and bring the best in life to you.. *hugs*

the truth really hurts alot..

today was a shitty day.. i felt so cheated.. i was a fool for the whole god damn 18months! there the story goes.. today i was chatting with one of my long lost friend.. were happily chatting together where suddenly this topic pop up.. she asked me how's me and Terence.. and i told her we broke up already.. the first thing she said was.. "you should have broke up with him earlier.. i was suppose to tell you this earlier.. since you're no longer with him.. i should tell you now.." somehow this long lost friend of mine were at the same trip as him.. and they saw him kissing another girl.. *how idiotic* that is not the worse part of the story.. because he told them to cover his back.. and he lied for more than a year to me!! i broke into tears when i heard this.. i cried so badly.. my eyes are all swollen now.. i felt betrayed.. how can you do such things at my back and you act as if nothing happened.. you could have just told me but you kept silent all these while.. i could not breathe for a moment.. and i thought, if i am still with you right now.. i will not know anything that you have done behind my back.. to a point, i thank god it was over.. the truth of you being abusive to me.. the truth that you have cheated on me.. to truth of you lying to me.. and the truth of all the things that you have done really hurts me so badly..

finally i'm all happy again!!! =)

naughty boy! caught red handed smokin.. haha..

me & alfred in kenny rogers.. *yummy*

freezing coldddd..

alfred, cherie, chris and jeremy..

me and alfred in starbucks, genting..

31st January 2007

weeeeee... i was in genting today.. and i really really had a great time there.. i finally can have a good time for all the mayhem that has happened on me.. and i finally can get myself to forget about all the things that people has said about me.. cos the truth will reveals someday.. you can go around telling people all the nonsense that you have created.. cos it does not bother me anymore.. i don't have to be childish with you.. so go ahead.. =) but oh well, this trip is for me to relax and forget bout all the problems.. once we reach there we went and check-in into the hotel.. but the room was not ready yet (still have a very strong smell of the Indians!) so me and alfred went to starbucks and yumcha there.. till at night we went to the casino!!! unbelievable huh?? i manage to get in there although i was not 21!!! haha.. tough i did not win any money.. but it was a great experience!!

1st February 2007

last night i didn't really had a goodnight rest.. cos the place was damn noisy.. but in the morning we're late.. suppose to meet up with alfred's dad, his sis chris and her bf jeremy for breakfast.. but we only mange to be there at 9.30am.. so we only have about half an hour to eat.. after that i went into the casino again for the second time!! how unbelievable.. haha.. they were giving me a cold stare but i still manage to fake myself in.. =) i was there today playing the game called "keno".. it was an interesting one.. but i didn't win any money again.. so there's no beginner's luck here.. after that went to the hotel to check out and went back into the casino again for the third time!! it was crazy crazy crazy!! i have to sweat all the way and yet have to remain that "calm" look in order not to be suspicious.. after that we headed back home.. then me and alfred stop by in summit for lunch at the black canyon coffee.. yum yum tom yam!! =) so that's all.. concluded with loads of smiles and happiness.. i really had a great time.. thank you so much dear!!