disappointing day..

today i went to the college in the afternoon.. and i fucking got trap at the jam.. have to wait so damn long just to get the tickets.. *sigh* never mind.. then i went and hand in my assignments.. not only one but two!!! *weeee* *proud* how great was that huh? haha.. then i waited for Gary to arrived to pass me my notes and the materials.. (thanks bro).. after that there goes the stories again.. apparently, HIM went around and tell other people bout me and HIS stories again.. the fact that he was not telling the actual one.. he told those people another side of his self-made story.. he twisted and turned the story around.. telling people that i took back the phone i gave him that's why he needs to get a new one.. which he already have it now.. the worse thing is he told others that i left him because i went for someone new.. nonsense!! he's only making cow-sense here!! if i were to leave him because of someone else, i wouldn't have waited for like the whole damn one and a half years!! think think think.. probably by doing this he can save a little of his reputation.. whatever it is.. if you think what you have done is right.. than i have nothing else to say.. that is why i am fucking disappointed now.. for what i have done before and after our break-up.. oh well, what the hack.. tomorrow i will be in genting.. and i hope i can free myself there from all these nonsense.. i need a break!!! till then.. update you guys more after my trip back from genting!! =)

girls night out..

today i went to laundry bar with tiffany.. was there having our girls night out.. wasn't really the best place to have a nice talk.. (thanks to all the wonderful bands there).. so me and tiffany were like shouting on top of our lungs in order to hear both parties talking.. great! but anyway, at least i get to hear quite alot of news from her.. apparantely some asshole out there has changed his phone.. where he claims that it was a birthday gift from his parents.. and if he was smart enough he could have just paid my parents back.. fucking hell.. he owes my parents damn hell loads of money and he is not doing anything.. yeah, i'm fucking broke.. and u're fucking dried up.. so is that my problem?? u should know what u're doing.. at the first place if u know u can't pay back then don't borrow from them.. thought u were matured enough to think.. but i guess u're not at all! i'm fucking glad that i've made the right decision not to be with u again! i pissed.. i'm fucking pissed with whatever u have done.. crap!

let 2006 diminish and may 2007 be a new year..

"A break up is like a broken mirror.. it is better to leave it broken than to hurt yourself trying to fix it."

heaps of things happened at the end of 2006 and the beginning of 2007.. my sister got robbed.. my mum was admitted into the hospital.. and i have just ended my one and a half years relationship.. and now i am struggling with my assignments to meet the deadlines.. thank god i have got extension for that.. if not by now i will be hanging on a thread.. back to my ex-relationship, it was like a roller coaster ride.. i have been struggling my best to hold on with it.. and finally i couldn't take it anymore.. u said u have changed and all.. and yes, i did saw the changed in u.. but the things u did in the past has engraved a strong impact to me.. and what u have done now and still doing it can no longer erase the past away.. u will never know nor feel how much pain that i have gone through.. like what u have said.. pain is gain.. and it is really true.. guess i have gain so so much.. from all the pains that i have gone through with you.. i am happy that u finally decided to change.. for good.. and for yourself.. but definitely it is not for this relationship anymore.. it is over.. i can never be a part of this again.. i can never hold any responsibilities to u or to us anymore.. hence, it is time to move on.. we can still be friends.. in fact, it was a blessing that we can still be friends after all that has happened.. don't hold back to the past anymore.. i know it may be hard for u to let go.. it is even harder for me to let go.. but i have done it.. i did it all for us.. things will be better this way.. u are a big boy now.. a matured man.. so do think properly before u do things.. never hurt anyone again like what u did before.. cherish what u have in life.. take care bro.. =)