Happy Valentine's Day!

our appetizer.. *yummy*

our tomato soup! =)

his main course..

my main course.. =)

our dessert.. so lovely!! =)

i had a wonderful time today on Valentine's Day.. cos it was my first time celebrating it.. as in dressing up formally for a dinner together with your loved ones.. =) i was really anxious.. thinking of what to wear and all..

but i bet suet sum was even much more nervous than i do.. she has been asking me the night before where will i be going and what will i be wearing.. and she even made plans to spend time with me.. *awwww* that's really so sweet of you girl.. I'm so touched.. i hope you had loads of fun with your college mates.. love ya! =)

alright.. back to my dinner.. Alfred brought me to San Francisco Steakhouse.. where we actually made the reservations there a week earlier.. the environment there was not really grandeur.. but well, nothing else matters when you are with the person u love.. *love is in the air* i am really really content at this point.. =)

after our dinner we went to the Beer Garden.. we ordered a bucket.. and there's two of us drinking only.. knowing that i am not a good drinker.. i was forced to drink literally.. cos i loose in the card game.. so i have to drink.. *sobs* after the drinking session off we head back to our home.. i had such a wonderful time with you dear.. thanks so much for everything!! love ya! *muaks*

things were still the same from the incident last night.. the cold war is still on between me and him.. he didn't reply me messages and all.. i don't know what have i done.. *sacrosanct* and i have to go to college.. knowing that i am not feeling me today.. i force myself but i could only stay for an hour plus.. i am just so vulnerable.. *sigh*

after college mum wanted to go to Carrefour.. so we drop by there a while before head back home.. and i saw him online.. knowing that i have to clear things out with him.. so i message him again.. and finally he replied.. those misunderstandings and the stress that he was facing is killing us both.. we were talking till a point where we have to leave each other alone.. so i went offline..

then Wai Seng came to bring me out for snooker.. so we went to Summit.. was having heaps of fun there.. laughing and laughing all the way till i stomached.. haha.. and he made me phobia with the colour "Green" now.. (you surely know what am i talking about) =) anyway, it was really nice of you entertaining me today.. with all the "jeng jeng jeng" (opps.. i am not supposed to say this out) haha.. and i did not bring my purse out today!! what on earth is happening to me?? so he had to pay for everything.. *scandalous* thanks so much for everything today.. i owe you ya.. the next time snooker is on me alright? =)

by the time we left Summit.. Alfred called.. he wanted to meet up.. and i was surprised.. to a point i actually thought things with me and him is over.. so Wai Seng drop me off at my house.. (i can never thank you enough) =) and Alfred came and pick me up.. but i went home for dinner before we went out.. finally, we get to settle everything down properly.. and i was glad that i could take it talking face to face.. and there was one thing he said that made me felt so touched.. "whenever we are having a hard time or things are not going the right way, we can always ask for a time out and not a break up.."

and now, i am all content again.. thanks dear.. and not to forget Wai Seng.. =)

in a stage of perplexity..

i just came back from another yumcha session.. was out with Xin Yi, Wai Seng and his friends Alex and Bo.. thanks for being so entertaining.. though I'm not feeling top of the world today.. *sigh* anyway, it was really nice meeting you guys.. =)

I'm feeling lost right now.. hence, I've decided to express my confusion on the monitor again.. i mean i find this the best way.. to say whatever i feel.. i know action speaks louder than words.. but somehow, blabbing to the monitor is one of the best way for me to release myself..

i went to college this afternoon.. was having some interview with all the Prom King and Prom Queen nominees.. after that, i went home.. till evening Alfred came and pick me up to the Curve.. went there to look for my Valentine's gift.. but i was being fastidious again.. so end up i didn't get to find anything there..

then things start going the other way round.. somehow, he was discontented.. and he acted cold.. i really didn't know what I've done wrong.. sometimes, i find it hard to understand you.. cos you do have split personalities.. i mean everyone does.. including me.. I'm trying my best to compromise in everything.. what more can we ask for? i feel so tiny.. i feel so confused.. i know you have been through so much with her before.. and there are things where she will do for you and i will not.. the only reason is because i do not feel comfortable doing it.. and i really do hope you understand rather than treating me so coldly.. what are you thinking off? what exactly do you want or expect me to do? i am myself.. i just don't wanna be someone who you expect me to be..

probably it was not a big matter after all.. or it's just me thinking beyond thing?..